Category Archives: Transgender Surgery

What I learned from “top surgery” Preoccupied by the outside of my body, I was distracted by the superficial parts of the body, visible to the eye.  After going through surgery and instead, being so focused on what the “inside” of the body is capable of, I whole-heartedly believe that waking up each day toContinue reading “Invisible Miracles”

It’s 2:30 in the morning and I can’t get back to sleep.  I woke up with a sinking feeling as if I’d just emerged from a nightmare.  I’m feeling smothered by an unusually low feeling, uncharacteristic of the past weeks where I’d been overtaken by gratitude and positivity for everything and anything. Yesterday all theContinue reading “Scars We Bare Forever”

I thought I would have to get used to not having breasts.  After surgery, I kept waiting for it to “sink in” or to be overwhelmed with emotion at some point.  Perhaps I’d feel like a different, newly reinvented person, or maybe even mourn the loss of part of my body? Realizations never set in. Continue reading “A Reflection that Matches My Mind’s Eye”

My decision to have “top surgery” I know people secretly wonder: So why did you do it?  Why did you have surgery to remove your breasts? The deeper answer is that I wanted my body to match how I have always seen myself in my mind.  I feel like a male who removed a defectContinue reading “Going Under the Knife”