“In nature, a flock will attack any bird that is more colorful than the others because being different is seen as a threat,” – Wrabel
The greatest gift a mother could have – a daughter, and I’m stealing that gift away. I feel her heart breaking- everyone’s heart breaking as I am transforming, evolving, reinventing relationships, re-writing language and re-conceptualizing existence and I feel my heart crack for them. It seems as though the person they knew for 36 years is dying and all I can do is watch them mourn.
All this emotion is re-birth in disguise…
An enormous amount of courage this takes to face the firing line and still put one foot in front of the other but that has made me a better version of myself. I have learned to not judge. I follow an intense curiosity to learn the world beyond what we see on the surface and see pain in hollow eyes and pursed lips clearer than before so I no longer see labels; I see human beings.
The strength I found in myself through this journey will carry me through the rest of my life and I am not afraid of change. If I can change my gender, I can change anything in my life.
I discovered an abundance of patience within myself through which I have learned to live in the moment.
I refuse to let judgement or conformity get me so far down that I cannot feel the collective pulse of this world. You may be seeing the loss of a daughter but the person you gain is so much more than just a label. I will defy all obstacles to explore my true self, and never stop peeling back layers to discover the undiscovered.
All these undiscovered souls walking this earth and I refuse to be one of them.
And with this plenitude of knowledge I gain, I will confidently teach others that they too are worthy.
I will make “mistakes” but I won’t have regrets. I will be living consciously and authentically, and with the greatest amount of courage, strength, and compassion. Maybe having a daughter is the greatest gift in the whole entire world; or perhaps, raising a human being brave enough to unapologetically live their authentic self in this world so full of hate and judgement, is an even greater gift.
Watch Wrabel’s video here: